So yeah been awhile since I have been on a computer, but as some of you may or may not have known I took a fall mid January. Due to a degenerative spine issue I have had since I was around 16 the incident caused some major issues that continued to get worse as time moved forward. Also during this time my beloved Boone, an Australian Cattle Dog that I had for 18 years decided it was his time to leave this place on his own terms and crossed over February 19th, 2019. Which was followed by an E.R. visit for me due to pain and I couldn’t walk. So to say it has been a rough few months is an understatement. Thank God for my amazing family and friends that have been here for me and all the prayers and healings that have been put up as well.
So writing this is much later than I would have liked to, but it is still very important that people understand a few things about life and “Spirit” in general. Back on January 8th a few days before my birthday actually, I received a note from a Son from another Mother across the pond. We have never met in person, but as with many of my friends we are connected none the less. He has done my radio show and I just admire him dearly. I am sharing what he wrote me, because it was to me… but I want you to understand the point I am trying to make to you all who wonder, or feel they are not being heard by a higher power. The following is what he wrote to me…
“Hi there Bear i so hope you have had an amazing Christmas time and a wonderful start to this blessed new year .. now i have something rather strange to share with you …well you might find it strange ..i know i do …so ..i am sat or have just been sitting enjoying a wonderful meditation, and just as the meditation was coming to an end and i was starting to make myself aware of my surroundings once more ..i was aware of a gentleman’s energy rush in really quickly but it was very gentle …i wasn’t aware of what he looked like or anything about him ..i was only aware of his energy ..then just before his energy went i heard a song play which was strange ..it was this exact song by this exact man who is singing it ..i will send a link to the song after i send you this message … i thought this strange after his energy went ..but then i heard my guide say to me ”it’s for bear” and he showed me your face so i knew it was for you …very strange indeed and soo soo soo sorry for the big long message ..i hope you can make sense of it and god bless your wonderful self and amazing family xx”
So immediately I knew who the gentleman was, it was my father. I knew because number one it was one of our favorite songs together…. and the version Ryan was referring to was my favorite version. It came from Ryan so I would pay attention to it for I seldom ask those in the field for readings, yet I had many questions I had been asking the Universe, Creator for a response to help me with what lies ahead. One of them had been about figuring solutions for Boone, the last thing I wanted was to stress him out in the truck to take him to the vet for the last time, he was blind and deaf and would go into a seizure anytime I had tried to take him for a ride, something he loved to do for 16 years. I wanted him to pass at home, and I knew the time was getting near. So I asked for a sign…
I had many other things I was struggling with, I was at a place in my life I simple told a few of my closest friends, I was tired… tired of constant pain, struggling cause I cant hold a regular job due to my physical condition, and just things in general… I was tired(Still recovering from tired 😉 ). I am not saying suicidal please know that, never would be, but I get it truly do… but I just wanted direction. So like a couple other times in my life, I guess I wasn’t hearing the answers clearly so the proverbial 2 x 4 was taken to my life and everything cleared out again in a way. And this time as with the others, everything in my life came to a complete and sudden halt!
The night Boone passed I spoke to Lynn Lewis, who is a Sister to me…and said I need help… Boone was wrapped in my hallway, and I was flat on my back unable to move. We were in the middle of an ice storm… she came the very next day no question. My neighbor came down and they took Boone’s remains to vet for cremation. My daughter knew what was going on and continually called checking in… and Julie Sullivan did the same even though she was ill at the time with vertigo. Life sucks sometimes, but sometimes we have to stop and ask for the help, and then sometimes even harder is accepting it.
The other thing I told a few people who included my daughter was I kept seeing my Granny before and after I came home from the hospital. When she had been alive we were very close, so I knew she was watching over me…but then the message changed up and she was telling me oh uh-uh you still have many things to do so you ain’t going anywhere. She told me that many times, it scared my daughter… and it scared my friend Lynn. (No wasn’t and drugs making me hallucinate, don’t take any of those kinds o drugs they only make me sicker). For me it was simply sleep and a lot of it. I have only recently this past weekend been able to walk a bit and make it to the other room and actually sit for about an hour…but then it is back to sleep. I have a way to go yet, but am getting there. Walking more and more around the house, finally without the walker. The Healthcare staff that has helped me Kymm, Lisa, Mike from x ray, Steve from Maintenance, Nic, Steph and Molly I love you guys so much for knowing exactly what had to be done for me, I love you all so much for the assist and don’t say it’s just your job, cause to me it is not just your job.
So the point of it all is to tell Ryan your gifts are many and great, to all never think that something you do for someone is just small because for the person you are doing it for, or listening to you may be a lifeline. Last but not least…. for those that think Spirit does not hear us, or watch over us… my belief is you are wrong, for they do hear us, they do watch over us, for some of us we are even lucky enough to see them. The message Ryan sent me was spot on…the Rainbow my Dad showed me was for me to know Boone would soon travel as I asked… to my Mom who i Asked to come and get him …help him cross, his demise began mid day on her birthday …. then passing in my arms.
So ask Spirit, Creator, the Universe however you choose but Dare to Dream knowing that you will be heard. Be thankful to all the people you come in contact with good, bad and indifferent, for they all have things to share and teach us in their own way.
I love and thank you All… especially my Granny, My Pops, my Mom, Lynn, Diana, Denise, Julie and my beautiful daughter Taylor to infinity and beyond…..
~ bear Medicinewalker
Boone March 3 2001-February 19th, 2019
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