Angry???Mad???Pissed Off???Out of Sorts??? We Are Allowed!

I was talking to little Brother Nick Fox https://www.facebook.com/nickfoxlove/ last night and we were discussing anger… and if I am being honest with you all I have been very angry over the past year, and that is okay because as I move through my human journey and work at healing my body, it does not always keep up with where my mind and soul want to be.

This is key for all of us that struggle with issues in our lives that arise and do not fit with our plans. We do not plan to loose a job, we do not plan to become sick, we do not plan to not be able to pay bills, we do not plan on relationships breaking down or any other thing that negatively impacts us for short or long term. Pain comes in many forms, physical, mental, spiritual… and pushing though it is often a difficult thing. It is also something that we need to remember if we need help with we need to reach out and ask for that help.

Life isn’t always easy and I do not think it was actually meant to be, for without the ups and downs we would not grow or learn how to be our best selves. As Nickie said to me… “It makes us think outside our normal constraints, it makes us realize how simply beautiful life is.” To which I replied that I could do without all the shit that piled up and is making me shovel out of in order to figure my path out again.

Now don’t get me wrong, I am truly blessed with many things… I am grateful for many things and people that are in my life… and it is not a pity party that I am wanting or speaking to, it is simply a right that we all have to be angry or pissed off about things that have not worked out. Why you might say, because it is then my opportunity to become better at things in the future. Or perhaps appreciate the things that show up down the road for me in a better way.

So we have to learn that not everything is positive, but if we bottle it up it does not help us to heal. It needs to be acknowledged so we can better understand what we need to do in order to get our path managed again, ourselves healthy again. It doesn’t matter if it is physically better, mentally better or spiritually better… it simple means we need to find balance in our lives the best way that we are able.

I went to see my Doctor last Friday… and when we discussed the nerve pain I was experiencing and he stated that I wouldn’t know for sure for probably another year and a half if it would mend its self… I told him I didn’t like him very much in that moment. He laughed and said you just have to keep pushing through it all. So that is what I have to do, don’t have a choice. There will be some days that I will be cranky as hell… other days that perhaps I will want to escape and curl up in a ball. But in acknowledging that I am releasing some of the control it has on me. It will help me to reach Happy, healthy and whole. Just as I hope all of you experiencing bumps or diversions on your hill come to realize… none of us are alone in this we just have to reach out if we need to for a shoulder, an ear or a friend remembering that if we are Angry???Mad???Pissed Off???Out of Sorts??? We Are Allowed!

So perhaps look at yourself today and count your blessings, or lend an ear or a shoulder… or ask for someone to listen to your frustrations knowing that we all have been there before at one point or another and perhaps in doing so we will make our day and another persons a little better.

Blessings to you All.

~ bear Medicinewalker